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    November 08

    Spotless

    They seems to know everything, everything is under control, nothing can surprise them, those people who stays in the city for a long time but never felt as belonging to here. If they defend it's a human nature to protect themselves, how can it spreads as a fashion. They cherish and give a high value of pureness and spotless, but never ever would get close to it. They say they are not young any more, time flies and never goes back. Time yes, but the state does can go back, if they try to gain it back.

    Actually, it's just simple like love. Just love.

    November 02

    A sip on work

    今天真的是特别特别特别冷,小红马都被冻傻了,早上跑在四环上,前车顶上的雪被风吹下来,飘飘洒洒的一条白色带子,好看极了。
    周一一早不怕堵车不担心迟到的感觉真好,大家都去奥美开会了,就Miya、Joy和我厮守偌大一个office,外表的宁静下,MSN上协调出一致不想工作,突然想起前两天Halloween Party上的left over还在车上,假借外套落在车上,顺了一整瓶Kahlua回来,加上咖啡牛奶,一大早就边喝边给Miya做酒类常识普及,直到双颊泛红,身子发暖,我们才收敛起来,溜回座位。
    Yes, Happiness is simple.
    October 27

    Theme Party

    在女人的谈话中,有两个话题永远不会过时:服装和男人。而当你恰不知道该如何开始第二个话题是,不妨从第一个开始。

    其实我只是想表达,Dressing是一个多么有魔力的词汇,把一群年纪、背景等等都不相仿的女人及女孩联系起来,还笑的如此灿烂。

    (Re: Post Photo)

    上周在倒腾和Miya出去玩的相片,在妈妈的相机里面找到了整整两年前的照片,即出国前到五台山家庭旅行的照片,大费周章的打了出来,只为了能戴着眼睛仔仔细细的盯着许久之后的一句感叹,“我还有那么纯真的眼神”,老妈感叹不已,我也啧啧不休,老爸补一语,“那会儿没男朋友吧”。

    Anyway, I feel so lucky and happy having Miya accompanied on this trip. She's just so extraordinary and wish her to find her...

    I simply wanna a dog n u know by ur heart that I'm a dog person. And I've already compromise on a kitty. Why could you just let me go?! XXXX!

    世界上什么事情都在发生:我心目中最完美的一对儿分手了,最意外的一个人结婚了。都是西藏惹的祸。

    January 15

    Still nothing

    It has been more than 6 months being away from here. I do miss the time and so me who wrote those bullshit. Although I lost my self for a while, it happens, I think, for most people, I was trying to sort out my life about study, work and relationships with family and old pals. I figure I am on a new page of my life, more or less. And I keep thinking how can I make it right, under a moral and public criterion. Usually, when I don't know the answer, I used to bury myself in books and wine, which can create a prefect space for me to think and brew. Naturally, I have been influenced a lot by certain book and become who I am. It may sounds like I couldn't hold an opinion toward something independently. I won't deny and I don't think it's too bad neither, if I can pick a good book on that point. Anyway, after serious conversation with experienced friends and books, I deem the most important thing in the new job is being humble. All people love this feature, however it also might be the hardest character of human being. In that, I made a list, seriously. I made my decision that I am gonna play hard on myself in order to protect the true part of me. At least I hope so.
    June 22

    我是个穷胖子

    爸爸对我说,"有钱人都是瘦子, 所以我很穷; 看你比我还穷, 还越来越穷."
     
    June 21

    Soundless

    After the fifth day, living in a soundless world. Suddently, sound in the world around me bacome such a melody, as for me. Erenow I've never felt so excited when I heard your voice and listened your words. It turns out that I've closed my eyes and shut off my ears too long to realize it. Thus I merely could remeber, recall your merits, and how sweet you are. The more regret I feel, the deeeper my feeling sink in. I wish I can whisper to your ear,"I'm sorry. I love you."
    June 20

    失去的美好

    大家都毕业了,错过了,我自己的选择
    有话想说,不知道怎么说,不知道对谁说,也不知道说来干嘛
    只好和Emu, Kiwi还有Kaka一起去找Ostrich玩转Starbucks:太舒茶+双倍浓缩
     
     

    June 04

    Individual or alone?

    Individual and lone, are they the same or wholly different? We usually say that  western more respect people as individual, and Chinese are inclining to collective group. Individual sounds independent and reliable, and we probably won't consider any relevant to lonely. Coz alone sounds be left there and miserable. In a word, subjective and objective. If it's what you chose, you are great; if not, you are pitiable.
    I used to think it's a doomed subjective behavior as people to choose their own way to live. But suddenly it occurred to me that, maybe, individual is an totally objective outcome. To be simple, here, the most fashion and beautiful city on the earth, assembled people who are passionate and intellectual. Whereas comparing with China, the population is still like a sesame which is standing by watermelon. They have plenty chances to meet people, but rarely have opportunity to live or deal a great number of people. In Chine, just opposite, we merely could stay lulled. In consequence, they claim they are individual, in case that sounds not so miserable, further step, mocking group people reliant.
    That's all what in my mind when I was trying to finish the cusk in my lunch plate.

    为了想念我的人不要担心,特列下周行程:
    6
    5         66         67           68           69        610


    Paris-prague     prague        budapest         wien-hallstatt      hallstatt-Wien      wien-paris    


     布拉格        布拉格         布达佩斯      奥地利的小镇   回维也纳看球    从维也纳晚上的飞机回巴黎

    手机呢,现在在用的这个+33 6 18 67 06 25,不确定那边能不能用。原先的那个也会带着,那个肯定能用,希望我能搞定哪个法语冲值系统,号码该知道的人都知道了。

    May 28

    救人

    看到很多救人的文章,想起一个很早前的,被无限重复的问题: 发水灾,孩子、母亲、配偶掉水里了,先救谁?貌似最合理的答案是救离自己最近的人。不知道去哪里可以找相关的比例统计数据,这次四川时间之后,我看到的,貌似救孩子的人最多。人终究还是感性的,尤其是有孩子的女人,是我觉得最有研究价值,伟大又丑恶的群体。(回顾一下历史上以母爱而犯下的罪行,其扭曲程度绝不亚于剪刀手爱德华)这证明了什么呢,假若说前一题诗基于对三个人的感情分量都一样的前提下,还有可能成立,可现在证明了什那么呢?女人们一厢情愿的跟孩子的感情更深厚吗,我说一厢情愿是因为,若不是的话,那救母亲的比例应该是和救孩子的比例一样。
    Whatsoever,I am wondering whom I would go to rescue, based on tha assumption that I have a child, even though I am not a baby person. I had a great relationship with my mam. I've never met anyone else has a better relationship than us on earth, except for people you read on books, no matter on fictional or non-fictional. Neglect of considering offspring, due to over population and bla bla, I'd love to rescue my mam first.   

    Blog

    博客,又贫,又寂寞。
    这些人放古时候保准都憋成诗人。
    May 27

    Wedding Album

    在网上游荡,翻到一个婚礼的相册,我估计我看见它的感觉,就跟小布什见到拉登似的,发现被阳光烤黑的皮肤上更容易看清鸡皮疙瘩。
    那一刻,也许对于那个女生是最美的瞬间,或者是对她的妈妈,也没准是世上剩下的其他单身女性,反正对于什么人,应该是美好的;对我,比《断头谷》还惊悚。深吸了一口气,继续看下去,新娘放在现实生活中,是入得了眼的女人,新郎被淹没黑压压的乌鸦中了,也许是我光顾着找伴郎了。继续看下去,是因为我想证明给自己,世上有很多我不想入眼的人和事,悲伤的,幸福的,丧尽天良的,美好高尚的,有很多原因,但也许都称不上理由;证明给自己,I can live with them, just keep positive. 我能接受,但不表示我以折磨自己为嗜好,快快关了网页。
    Wedding,对于大多是女孩,都曾是一场梦,或多场梦,我也曾偷偷的幻想过自己的婚纱,定制的婚纱,也许能改一改传给我的孩子。而婚礼则更像是一个场合,可以在人们的注视下展示婚纱的场合。虽然说来自私,可我还小,还没有预见所谓的Mr. Right,或还没有准备远见。无论如何,庆幸这个事实,因为从某种角度有种胜利感,有时女人也可以像男人一样没有责任感。
    期待,28号Sex and the city的首映。   
    May 23

    看剧

    I got an invitation from a friend of mine to theater. It's pretty a luxury life for me, a poor student, to visit theater in Paris, the kingdom of theater. But she forwarded me a web link and comforted me that there are some plays only costed 10e. Unforturnately, I've to admit that I've been quite touched indeed. 

    My mam she's a nature player. It's her final dream in her life, I think. And since I was a little meat ball, she started bring me to theater, such as Renyi and Baoli. I can still remember around 12 years ago her face on bus 22 to Wangfujing Street in which settled Renyi theater. There was a smile on her face I've never been lucky enough to see it again, at least till now.

    I opened the link without second thought, even I knew I won't find anything out due to stupid french. I shouldn't be surprised that there are so many chioces for all kinds of play and covered every coner of Paris. I couldn't help to question why they are so in love with watching play and playing play?

    Tracing back to mid-century, people went to theater enjoying a play not only as a token of status, but also a peek into a different life. Cinema is its modern replacement. It's easy to understand that springs from nature instinct of human, curiosity. Curiosity of new and different thing, in this case, it's life, other people's lives. The reason of prevalence can be concluded by much more complex causes, like exploring of esthetics, business in entertainment, cultural education and so on.

    One of them attracts amount of my attention, loneliness. In general, we are individual in collective group. Obviously, solo person deadly needs decent activities to get together without presenting their lonesomeness but mocking others'. Alongside, what we are going to do is waiting time passed by and then going to bed with someone hooked in theater. If you are lucky enough, maybe in your bedroom there is a special play will show up tonight. 

    May 19

    飞啊飞

    我爱廉航
    http://www.fly2save.com/modules/cjaycontent/index.php?id=2
    May 18

    北京欢迎您

     
    May 16

    Life or something like it

    凡高在弟弟来巴黎的时候跟他讲:“巴黎是个非常奇怪的城市,除非你杀掉你自己,否则你就呆不下去。”

    想起一部电影{Life or something like it}, Angelina Jolie的一部烂片,试图探讨一个永恒的无聊话题,{假若一周后你将死去,你会做什么?}电影的答案也很简单,{Be yourself and doing nothing.}
    会对这部电影有映象是,现在在真实的体会Doing Nothing。不难做到,但缺少机会做到,因为不是谁都能陷到无欲的状态,(除了食欲和性欲,或者说只剩食欲和性欲),也许是因为不愿意陷入,有意识的去竞争因为要生存,所以就这样简单的逝去了客观条件,也就很难Be Yourself and Doing Nothing。
    当不巧的有了这客观条件的存在,电影中出现了一对儿男女,现实中只身一人。
    May 15

    The Ass and The Flute

    It's the first fable I read, when I turned over {the black sheep}. Neither the wittiest nor wisest, but very impressive, of course. Otherwise, I probably wouldn't buy it anyway. The feeling is so familiar that I don't dare say. Things happen.

    The Ass and the Flute
       For a long time, a Flute that nobady played any more had been lying discarded in the countryside, until one day an Ass who happened to be passing by snorted heavily onto it, causing it to produce the sweetest sound of their lives, that is to say, the life of the Ass and the life of the Flute.
      Incapable of understanding what had happened, for rationality was not their strong point and both believed in tationality, they hurriedly went their separate ways, ashamed of the best thing that either of them had done in the course of their sad existences.




    May 14

    脚疼

    脚疼,脚疼,脚疼。
    3天的3厘米小跟鞋,平均每天站立3的3倍小时,用掉3片创可贴;
    连看3常电影,打3遍才通的电话,吃3遍晚餐;
    想在3月3日过生日,吹3跟蜡烛,吃3块儿蛋糕。
    3岁,13岁,30岁,33岁


    May 11

    House

    Recently, I am stuck on House. Morning waking up in House, and falling with sleep with house in the night. The stories are affected airs and medical theories are far beyond my mind. Anyway, Dr House, the narcissiam, selfish, arrogant gimp jerk, is just so damn attractive to any girl with a slice of motherhood.
     
    Regardless, what I wanna say is, there are few sentences to describe House by his best friend grasped me deeply. Generlly, it is, "You don't like yourself, but you do admire. You are afraid of any change, because you don't wanna lose your special. And you are
    keeping yourself being miserable only makes you miserable. " What I only see from these words is a hardly damaged man, and couldn't help to cuddle him. How great it sounds, motherhood, offering without requirement. It's the most remarkable love in the world, but also the muderer of relationship between couples.
     
    So, I am here to warn girls who still believe in marriage do not watch the series any more. To boys, stop your girl watching it. Why? It's a common sense that female hormone be produced in a large number when women in love. Too much offering hurt the ego of men, afterward shake their kingdom in relationship, which is unacceptable by any ambitious man. As a consequence, splitting up to end the affection immediately, or giving a birth to transmit it. Wharever which one, there is only one ending.
     
    Eventhough, I still couldn't get myself out of it. Like the wise man always say, "Love is love."
    May 08

    suck city

    There is a saying, "God treats his kids equitably. So he bestowed the most fertilized and nourishing land to the laziest nation." We all know who I am talking about. In this case, they've got plenty time working on so-called pieces and immersing themselves in the worship of caveman. Since I am not old enough to get my name in history, I'm visiting musees, exhibitions, galleries and workshops as much as possible to polish their asses.
    I am mean. It's a tag of typical city girl. I am in any way and no ashamed of saying that. I can't bear a life out of downtown. Especially, I've quite well known how's the life in county.
    It makes me wandering about the standard of metropolis. The idea of classifying things makes me sick, but I am doing it. So what's about it? Is it about the proportoin of living area or the number of car accidents per day, the quality of universities or amount of languages we can speak, the undertable trades of governor or offshore accounts, the shorteness of skirts or AIDS infected patients, maybe is about the quantity of suicide and drunkards on the roads in the morning. For Paris' sake, I'm bound to check musees and vintage boutique owners.  
    I am trying to make a life among those stuffs, still keep my finger out of them. Who damn shit fucker ask me what did I learn during my internship! Don't you understand  I am still alive is a miracle itself.
    I couldn't help questioning why I choose to live like this. Maybe I have a nomadic nature and spoting around huge cities would suit to me well. Nevertheless homesick is much more beautiful than spitting on each other.
     
    PS To Kepan, 'Bon voyage!'.
    May 07

    going away

    I am the kind of typical person who believes in that things happened by certain reasons, and always looking for chance to make them happen, for good or for bad.
    Sometimes I have been blamed as a self-centred person and having group problem by my mam, but who is not. After all, you never can hear somthings good from your mam, eventought she's the one who prop my living. In my view, I  just wanna stick on what I am doing now, trying new things and searching my dream. Maybe it's a little bit over realistic, but I won't have another 20s in my life, who can tell it's worth or not. What I am glad is, papa is always on my side. At least, I get half poll in my family, in fact, it means everything is up to me. It's fair.
    The concept of trying new things in my mind is travelling around alone, maybe having some small talks with stangers, or reading on shaking train torturing my stomach. I did some this kind of exciting trips and now feel tired doing these monthly. Coz it becomes routine for me, not so attracting as it was. So what's new for me, now, it's living totally alone and indepent. No visiting, no friends, no cellphone, just me and a room with bathroom and electric. I am going to experience this, a little bit like in jail. Whatsoever, I'll get some quality time with myself and feeling myself.
    It recalled me Cast Away. I finished this movie on forward and in deed I feel sorry about that. I was in high school at that time. I wanna have something in common to talk with a boy whom I like, but on another side, I have to amuse my mam by study for pocket money. I thought I had a prefect plan to achieve a win-win situation.
    It's a past. I'm going to start something new and keep on my way. Goddamn bless me.